Wednesday, September 29, 2010

another day

well. Today & yesterday I got off work early. Which is nice. I beat Marshal home, get to sit on my butt and gain weight, because I really have NO energy.
Yesterday we hung out with one of my good friends. She's so much fun to hang out with. and it's so nice to have someone to talk to who I can trust. we went out to eat at the local mexican restaurant, it was ok, but I ate WAY too much. If we ever go again, i'm definitely splitting a meal.

I have my 2nd OB appointment tomorrow. hope I'm not gaining too much weight, I feel like I am. but at the same time It's so hard to be active when I'm so wore out all the time. Excited for the appointment tho. at the last one we could barely hear the heartbeat. Marshal won't be going with me because it's during my lunch hour and he doesn't want to miss work. It'll just be a measure, heartbeat & maybe check. ugh. wish they could skip the weight thing. hahaha!

Jada's been having some issues in school lately, crying, throwing fits, faking sick, trying to get tons of attention. It's getting really hard because Marshal and I are to the point where we don't know what to do with her anymore. We did sit down and have a HUGE talk with her and it seems to be helping. I'm just hoping things change before school gets very serious (like 1st grade). She has gotten better since the talk, but she goes through these stages.... she'll be good 1 day, and bad the next, and so on and so forth. I'm just hoping the good sticks.

Have you ever wondered were you would be in 5 years? I feel so satisfied with my life right now... all I can ask for is in 5 years to be in less debt and making a down payment on a home. some place for my family to settle down & be happy. It's so hard to think that a year ago, I was just a newly wed (which i still consider myself) and dreaming of a family, but family is underway, cannot wait to see mr. flynn holding a baby. and now i'm on to the next step, dreaming of a home. It would be so nice to build our dream home, but i'll just dream of getting a home. I always admire my parents, they got a home and were constantly rebuilding and fixing it up & it was gorgeous! I loved that house!! perfect.

I don't know. haha! it's just a lot of talk. I'm bored and can't wait for Marshal to get home. He's such a great guy and a hard worker.

Anyways. I'll quit talking for today. I'll update after the Dr. Appt tomorrow! :D

Saturday, September 25, 2010

new to blogging

So... I've had some friends that blog. and personally. I'm not sure if I have ever had time to do it... so we'll give it a shot now.

My name is Carmen (and if you are reading any of these [future] blogs you probably already knew that). I am 20 years old and I have had a not so strange childhood. I have great parents and have always had a loving family. I have Jada, my daughter, who was born in 2005. She is my world.

In 2009, I married the [mad] man of my dreams.. his name is Marshal. He grew up mostly all over Minnesota. We met at work and he made me laugh from day one.. I knew I had to have him (so I got him... mwahahahaha!).

well. a lot has happened in the last year, but in the end (well... begining), we are now expecting our first child together. We are due in March of 2011 & couldn't be more excited. I'm only 16 weeks pregnant & have only had 1 appointment so far. I have another coming up on Thursday.
The only thing we are praying that we are not, is having twins. I have a bunch of generations on my mother's side (like she has sisters that are twins, and they go up from there) and Marshal's dad is a twin, so the chances are great. we are just waiting to see. So far, I'm not to worried about it because you'd think... 'eh, with twins i'd probably be bigger then I currently am.. but that's also hard to tell because I'm plus sized anyways. so who knows I guess.
I started this pregnancy with a lot of morning sickness. I was miserable, but when I hit 13 weeks it magically disappeared. I am not able to function better but I do suffer with being exhausted very easily. This is going to be a long ride.

so more about Jada... She's very excited to be a big sister & she told me she wants a boy. If it's a girl she's going to be very sad & she wants me to "take it back". hahaha. keep in mind she's only 5. She started kindergarten this fall. that was hard for me, but I know she has a good teacher. she is having some issues in school & I'm going to have her have a "behavioral eval" which scares the crap out of me, but if it helps, wonderful. It's a good thing I know & trust the Dr. that is doing it. He is great. [I work for/with him! haha]. Hoping whatever she is going through is just her trying to understand the new changes in life, because she has been through a lot in her 5 years of existence. but she's a brave, smart, little girl. She really is mommy's princess & now she's turning into daddy's princess as well.
I'm so glad I got a good man for her to look up to. and I know this family will last forever.

I think that's about all I have for tonight. Hopefully I can keep this up and do it regularly, maybe it will help me keep my sanity (haha.. whatever's left of it). It's nice to introduce myself and let me know of anything you would like me to talk about and add my insight to. ta ta for now!